There are moments that flutter past my eyes which trigger a little trip down memory lane. I have been pretty nostalgic and all my previous entries are rather preachy I might say. To some they may be mere words that hold no importance but to me, these words are the very root of my existence. What is written and posted up there personify and represent the very essence of the author that so ceremoniously and painstakingly pens these arduous pieces. Words that hold so much importance and so much pent up emotions basically summarize my entire life. Now the question that trails these statements would be why allow such a public display of one’s life? Simply due to the sole reason that I believe in sharing what I have attained out of life with the rest of the world. I do believe in discrepancy and privacy but nonetheless what I am sharing is nothing out of the ordinary to some people as I believe that these incidents and occurences creep up somehow or rather in everyone’s life. These blogs simply present to you my take on these daily heart aches, tribulations, obstacles of life or simple experiences, however you choose to view it.
Disappointment and pain are inevitable in this perilous journey. Life is filled with a million heart rendering and wrenching moments and as we grow, through years, learnings, dawning comprehensions and with guidance and support, we begin taking things in a stride. Yet, the most painful and daunting experiences are the ones that provide us with the most insightful lessons. Ever heard of the saying, pride comes before a fall? Twist and diversify that slightly and you’ll derive a new definition. The higher you climb, the harder the fall. I did realize one fact throughout this short journey of mine. When we tend to expect and implicate expectations, disappointment seems to be an ascertained tag line.
I’m not saying that we should live life without expectations as they are the very source of inspirations and they mould us with a certain drive to achieve what we set out to. But what I mean is basically, have expectations but ensure that they are within grasp. Equip yourself mentally and emotionally and success will be yours for the taking. Life has its meddling and muddling ways of playing tricks with us. It throws in the most devastating and disastrous situations our way to divert our attentions and at times present us with delightful and beautiful bribes to drag us away from achieving our set goals. Go astray, and disappointment, shame and disatisfaction will haunt every strand of your delicate soul for the remainder of your life time.
Sounds particularly dangerous? Well, like all balanced features, the rewards that are to be reaped at the end of the day are more than gratifying. Focus is vital but even more the guidance and support of good friends and family is the core of success in this instance. I am not a saint to claim that I have been someone who has not run astray and had not diverted a number of times, but I have regained composure and I am very determined to accomplish what I had set out to in the first place. I had paid my dues (which came with some of the harshest penalties imaginable which make what little freedom and retribution I had obtained even more precious and beautiful in my eyes) and after being side tracked, temptation seems to be the mildest form of seduction in my eyes.
I guess that the enormous dosage of pain injected not into my veins but instead into my heart had a tremendous impact. I mean it was as if reality came with a cup of coffee to welcome me back from dreamland. It wasn’t pleasant or in the least enjoyable but atleast I am glad that I am living a life of honesty rather than a basic lie. I had grown so weary of dreading moments and basically crouching in a corner fearing upon which secret of my life was to be unearthed soon or what deep dark sin I had committed had been uncovered.
The constant gripping fear was driving me insane and I was unconsollable when reality came searching. But then again, life goes on I suppose. If not for me atleast for those around me that my presence effects and those that are heavily relying upon my support and future care (my family and certain friends). With this thought burning its torch in my conscience and fuelling my drive to move on I creep and crawl through life with one thought and one thought alone in my mind. To seek my penance and retribution. At last, I can close my eyes without another flashing nightmare or piercing prick at my conscience. I can finally live…
Disappointment and pain are inevitable in this perilous journey. Life is filled with a million heart rendering and wrenching moments and as we grow, through years, learnings, dawning comprehensions and with guidance and support, we begin taking things in a stride. Yet, the most painful and daunting experiences are the ones that provide us with the most insightful lessons. Ever heard of the saying, pride comes before a fall? Twist and diversify that slightly and you’ll derive a new definition. The higher you climb, the harder the fall. I did realize one fact throughout this short journey of mine. When we tend to expect and implicate expectations, disappointment seems to be an ascertained tag line.
I’m not saying that we should live life without expectations as they are the very source of inspirations and they mould us with a certain drive to achieve what we set out to. But what I mean is basically, have expectations but ensure that they are within grasp. Equip yourself mentally and emotionally and success will be yours for the taking. Life has its meddling and muddling ways of playing tricks with us. It throws in the most devastating and disastrous situations our way to divert our attentions and at times present us with delightful and beautiful bribes to drag us away from achieving our set goals. Go astray, and disappointment, shame and disatisfaction will haunt every strand of your delicate soul for the remainder of your life time.
Sounds particularly dangerous? Well, like all balanced features, the rewards that are to be reaped at the end of the day are more than gratifying. Focus is vital but even more the guidance and support of good friends and family is the core of success in this instance. I am not a saint to claim that I have been someone who has not run astray and had not diverted a number of times, but I have regained composure and I am very determined to accomplish what I had set out to in the first place. I had paid my dues (which came with some of the harshest penalties imaginable which make what little freedom and retribution I had obtained even more precious and beautiful in my eyes) and after being side tracked, temptation seems to be the mildest form of seduction in my eyes.
I guess that the enormous dosage of pain injected not into my veins but instead into my heart had a tremendous impact. I mean it was as if reality came with a cup of coffee to welcome me back from dreamland. It wasn’t pleasant or in the least enjoyable but atleast I am glad that I am living a life of honesty rather than a basic lie. I had grown so weary of dreading moments and basically crouching in a corner fearing upon which secret of my life was to be unearthed soon or what deep dark sin I had committed had been uncovered.
The constant gripping fear was driving me insane and I was unconsollable when reality came searching. But then again, life goes on I suppose. If not for me atleast for those around me that my presence effects and those that are heavily relying upon my support and future care (my family and certain friends). With this thought burning its torch in my conscience and fuelling my drive to move on I creep and crawl through life with one thought and one thought alone in my mind. To seek my penance and retribution. At last, I can close my eyes without another flashing nightmare or piercing prick at my conscience. I can finally live…
