Loneliness seems to be a solid companion in my life. Well, maybe not so much loneliness but this sinking aching feeling that you're just not complete. Like something's missing. Sometimes it feels as if you've forgotten something and other times it feels like you're trying to forget something. I'm trying to forget something but these few days have been extremely hard. Added with the fact that I'm PMSing... I just feel... lonely. An emptiness inside that at one point was slowly filling itself out but now seems to have grown so deep that its gnawing away at my defense wall. The wall that I built to protect myself once. Tears just seem so overrated these days. I'm too tired out of crying my eyes out. I just don't have it in me anymore.
Distraction barely work as I see myself constantly reflecting back without realizing. I'm associating everything all over again. I'm driving myself insane. I thought blogging about it would help. Apparently it doesn't. So I'm going to stop.
