Well, today was my first day at Curtin... To sum it all up, ever held a map, stared at a directory and yet felt lost? Yep! Thats me! Somehow the age old saying of women and directions seem to explain my genetic makeup perfectly... But on a different note, for some peculiar reason so does the saying men and asking for directions... Its not pride! Its some inexplicable sense that though NOTHING makes sense on the paper (the map) it somehow will in life (yeah, it will... only it will cost you 15 minutes of your tutorial) Sigh... I used to complain about UM (don't bother that I didn't actually study there :P) but Curtin is a whole different ball game! And its also pretty daunting when everyone you look at seems to know their way around EXCEPT YOU! (This is what happens when you miss orientation!)
Okay, BS aside... Today, I truly felt like a duck out of water... I met a nice girl who was kind enough to give me pointers and to add to the fact that I'm meeting her tomorrow to shop for books... But I still feel a little left out... Seeing that I'm jumping into a group of people who are going into their third year together, I guess it is a little normal to feel singled out a bit... But the whole thing truly hit me when I realized that I missed cozying up to my friends in class... For the first time in a VERY LONG time I actually went to class with the intent of studying and successfully managing to do so (more than often intending to study doesn't result in ACTUAL studying...at least in my case) I miss the times when I would stroll into class a couple of minutes late to find it reserved by the nut jobs I love as friends... I miss the notes we'd write to each other instead of actually speaking in case Guling goes "Sssshh!" I miss turning around and teasing Kaleena of her brilliance and pretending to be (okay so I'm not reeeeaaaally pretending- she is pretty scary!) terrified of Joanne... I miss yapping about something to Jill with Adie either snoozing on my shoulder and finding ways of poking me in obscene areas. I miss driving all of them nuts with asking Adie's magic 8 ball ridiculously stupid questions... I miss walking down to HP to buy drinks during break and sneaking back in a whole half hour later... I miss getting cranky when I haven't had my morning coffee and having one of them miraculously show up with coffee.... I miss being "educated" by Adie and Jill and teased about how ignorant I am when it comes to certain issues...
I guess in essence, class today reminded me a lot about the precious moments that I had so casually taken for granted. Its shown me that time can take away your teeny moments of priceless joy so every chance you get, hold it tight and close to you... I know that if I had a chance to turn back time, I would go back to those moments and hold on to it... In a way I still am. I'm holding onto those priceless moments in my mind and heart. I remember and cherish every bit of it. But most of all, more meaningful then the time spent together is the people I've spent those times with. My friends have been remarkable pillars of support and leaving them gives me no joy but I haven't left them empty handed. I've left my heart, my love, my thoughts and my wishes behind. They have with them the best of me. I have with me their love. And with this love, I can see any lonely day or forsaken night through.
ps: This does not give you the permission to forget us :)
I will try my best to educate you more, oh oh oh I printed a journal on kinky stuffs that lesbians and bisexual females will do xD
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pps. I'm lazy to log into my non-existent blog account. If you don't know who this is I'll smack you all the way to Timbuktu :)