Dee
Wading through a shallow creek,
As water trickles from a filled out left cheek,
I rest myself on a hard but sturdy rock,
And I smile as I watch little fishes flock,
The sun is bright but hides from time to time behind wispy clouds,
The place is quiet but not without absence crowds,
Its tranquility, serenity, beauty....
I weep at its simplicity....
For such with such simplicity comes a whirlwind of intricate complexity,
But yet, granted alongside is the innate ability,
To appreciate, adore and cherish all that has been granted,
And to yearn for all that is desired....

Love fills every inch of this haven,
Looking ever so much as an innocently painted heaven,
Memories and lessons of life that seem to hold true,
And people who believe them and see them through,
Love and care is all that these beings share,
Doing only as their heart deems fair,
Yet, untainted is their notions,
And furthermore so their intentions,
A world where ignorance truly is bliss,
And each with actions as innocent and sweet as a child's kiss,

Purity untainted,
Courage undaunted,
Love never diminished,
Care never needing to be replenished,
Strength unshaken,
Bond unbroken,

A world of bliss at its truest,
But is it a creation at its greatest?

Dee
Life has been such a blessing lately... I mean wow... I'm finally getting a handle on things and the grimmest of grim affairs does in its own weird way actually look pretty endearing. Sigh... I am happy =) And my black nail polish looks like crap. Shit. Somethings I suppose never change. Its the start of a new semester and already cracks or forming at what is supposed to be a smooth transition into my final year abroad. Complications have come about but seeing that this isn't in my control neither is it my fault, I'm going to push till I get my way. I will break through this and I will make things happen for myself. No pain, no gain right?

The gym has basically been the highlight of my entire holiday existence. It has served its purpose by making me feel more invigorated and more charged with energy. On top of that, Saturday's personal training session left me closer to DEATH than I have ever been before. I recall Jill saying that I, apparently, have more stamina than her. My freaking toes are laughing now. Apart from the fact that the rest of my body is screaming in agony. Its good pain, good pain. And now I think for some insane reason, I'm about to purchase 3 extra personal training sessions. God help me figure out why? I know its for my own good.... BUT THE PAIN!!!! YIKES!!! I had to baby sit 3 kids the next day and honestly, I in the true sense of the word, PANICKED! I survived the agonizing hours by sheer luck! Nothing more than sheer luck... And of course with the sacrifice of my mom's collection of Japanese figurines... Ah well, good riddance I think.. hehe...

So far a pretty spectacular day in all its flaws and mishaps! Another one I would never trade for anything else in the world!

Love and Hugs....
Dee
Wow... so much for keeping a promise... I took a LONG break from blogging... Let me first admit that it was a very conscious decision and I'm not going to blame time or circumstances for anything. In fact, there was many a times when I had literally sat down to blog but just couldn't. Life has been a little complicated, I will have to admit and for the very first time in a long while, I felt robbed of the ability to vent. I just felt like curling in bed and mourning my losses and gains (to a certain extent) or drowning myself with a new obsession. I chose the latter. I've been downloading all games imaginable and going through them painstakingly, one after the other. Confusion has set about brewing and stirring within me, bringing about it the usual, pain, tears, amazement (literally that I could feel the things I do), bafflement, and so many others (I know most of you would think that if a person could feel so many emotions all at one go they would stop functioning normally- guess what, you're right!)

Its been an erratic rollercoaster ride for my emotions. But hey, exciting isn't it? If you answered yes that I've gotta say.... YOU'RE FREAKING INSANE!!! Damn! I wish I could move on with life. Everytime I say I do, its not so much convincing the person I'm saying it to, its more an act of conviction for my own sanity. I need to get over this hurdle, I know first times are rather difficult but seriously! This is bloody pathetic! This is all your fault, divine being! If you had given us autonomy of our emotions. I know you did, but you placed that nagging emotion, that plaguing feeling behind as well. I don't know what the heck its called. I can't name it. Or rather I don't want to. Sigh...

There's a lot that I will say soon but as for a simple post, I believe this outta do it =)

Monday, August 24, 2009

Questions That Answers Can't Answer


Wading through a shallow creek,
As water trickles from a filled out left cheek,
I rest myself on a hard but sturdy rock,
And I smile as I watch little fishes flock,
The sun is bright but hides from time to time behind wispy clouds,
The place is quiet but not without absence crowds,
Its tranquility, serenity, beauty....
I weep at its simplicity....
For such with such simplicity comes a whirlwind of intricate complexity,
But yet, granted alongside is the innate ability,
To appreciate, adore and cherish all that has been granted,
And to yearn for all that is desired....

Love fills every inch of this haven,
Looking ever so much as an innocently painted heaven,
Memories and lessons of life that seem to hold true,
And people who believe them and see them through,
Love and care is all that these beings share,
Doing only as their heart deems fair,
Yet, untainted is their notions,
And furthermore so their intentions,
A world where ignorance truly is bliss,
And each with actions as innocent and sweet as a child's kiss,

Purity untainted,
Courage undaunted,
Love never diminished,
Care never needing to be replenished,
Strength unshaken,
Bond unbroken,

A world of bliss at its truest,
But is it a creation at its greatest?

Another Day A New Page


Life has been such a blessing lately... I mean wow... I'm finally getting a handle on things and the grimmest of grim affairs does in its own weird way actually look pretty endearing. Sigh... I am happy =) And my black nail polish looks like crap. Shit. Somethings I suppose never change. Its the start of a new semester and already cracks or forming at what is supposed to be a smooth transition into my final year abroad. Complications have come about but seeing that this isn't in my control neither is it my fault, I'm going to push till I get my way. I will break through this and I will make things happen for myself. No pain, no gain right?

The gym has basically been the highlight of my entire holiday existence. It has served its purpose by making me feel more invigorated and more charged with energy. On top of that, Saturday's personal training session left me closer to DEATH than I have ever been before. I recall Jill saying that I, apparently, have more stamina than her. My freaking toes are laughing now. Apart from the fact that the rest of my body is screaming in agony. Its good pain, good pain. And now I think for some insane reason, I'm about to purchase 3 extra personal training sessions. God help me figure out why? I know its for my own good.... BUT THE PAIN!!!! YIKES!!! I had to baby sit 3 kids the next day and honestly, I in the true sense of the word, PANICKED! I survived the agonizing hours by sheer luck! Nothing more than sheer luck... And of course with the sacrifice of my mom's collection of Japanese figurines... Ah well, good riddance I think.. hehe...

So far a pretty spectacular day in all its flaws and mishaps! Another one I would never trade for anything else in the world!

Love and Hugs....

Saturday, August 15, 2009

Humdrumming....


Wow... so much for keeping a promise... I took a LONG break from blogging... Let me first admit that it was a very conscious decision and I'm not going to blame time or circumstances for anything. In fact, there was many a times when I had literally sat down to blog but just couldn't. Life has been a little complicated, I will have to admit and for the very first time in a long while, I felt robbed of the ability to vent. I just felt like curling in bed and mourning my losses and gains (to a certain extent) or drowning myself with a new obsession. I chose the latter. I've been downloading all games imaginable and going through them painstakingly, one after the other. Confusion has set about brewing and stirring within me, bringing about it the usual, pain, tears, amazement (literally that I could feel the things I do), bafflement, and so many others (I know most of you would think that if a person could feel so many emotions all at one go they would stop functioning normally- guess what, you're right!)

Its been an erratic rollercoaster ride for my emotions. But hey, exciting isn't it? If you answered yes that I've gotta say.... YOU'RE FREAKING INSANE!!! Damn! I wish I could move on with life. Everytime I say I do, its not so much convincing the person I'm saying it to, its more an act of conviction for my own sanity. I need to get over this hurdle, I know first times are rather difficult but seriously! This is bloody pathetic! This is all your fault, divine being! If you had given us autonomy of our emotions. I know you did, but you placed that nagging emotion, that plaguing feeling behind as well. I don't know what the heck its called. I can't name it. Or rather I don't want to. Sigh...

There's a lot that I will say soon but as for a simple post, I believe this outta do it =)