Its been a whole month since I last wrote despite the fact that I had promised to make this a continous effort. Guilty as charged! Well, so much has happened since the last login and there is way too much to tell. Well for starters, the MM phase is now officially complete and we Mentors have officially ended our contracts. So sad... But no matter, new adventures have come piling my way. Class is now half way through and the pressure is now on as mid terms come creeping by. Being a tutor and also volunteering at the centre have opened my eyes to a new beginning. A different me, a better me. Less obsessed with trivial things like when was the last time I watched a movie (ratatouille- with the tp gang that is) and when was the last time I just went out to chill- (dinner with Rakesh), my mind is now filled with thoughts about others and their well-being. I was at first really apprehensive about going to Emmanuel Care Centre as I was not sure I would be able to connect with the kids especially since I have experience dealing with normal kids and not kids that have mental difficulties.
It was a very troubling brief period of time for me (right before I went to the centre) as I fought my inner demons that were whispering of the darkness that lay ahead of my path. Nonetheless, I stepped into the centre for the first time with a smile on my face and to my great suprise I found not discomfort nor uncertainty surrounding me but a ton of faces that looked up to me with adoration and great expectancy. I felt as if the children looked up to everyone else as their saviour, their knight in shining armor, their twinkling eyes almost pleading you to be with them. They were untouched by the demons that have invaded the minds normalcy. They were as clean as the white sheets just waiting to be filled with the vibrance that life would soon bless them with. But more than anything their lips and mouth spoke of no words greater than the ones that their eyes and smiles said, treat us like everyone else. They are just like everyone else. They feel. They hurt. They think and they know. They know when they are being laughed at. They know how it feels to be pushed aside. They know the pain of being looked at differently.
I saw love in the eyes of these children and not for a moment did I doubt myself when I was in their midst. Not once did I have to think of the demons that I had left outside the doors of the centre. Neither did I have to even second guess myself at what I had perceived as every notion, every move and every word these children uttered were plainly meant as can be. If anyone were to ask me what is truth, from this children I would say I have learnt that truth is, void of knowleadgable deviants without being ignorant. These children are untainted by the dark wisdoms of our culture and nature not by choice but by the blessing undowed over them by God.This is why they are God's special children. They are his chosen ones to show others what Adam and Eve had once been blessed with, void of deviant knowledge without the aspect of ignorance.
I thank my lucky stars for allowing me a glimpse into such a wonder and such a miracle of life. I might sound as if I'm truly gushing at this rather excessively but not many may understand these kids the way some of us do. Not many may bother about them. Not many may even care but I do. And I thank God for allowing me the ability to feel and love. This is one instance that I have to say
Love is Pure,
Love is True,
Love is Childlike,
and if you allow it, you can find love in YOU.
It was a very troubling brief period of time for me (right before I went to the centre) as I fought my inner demons that were whispering of the darkness that lay ahead of my path. Nonetheless, I stepped into the centre for the first time with a smile on my face and to my great suprise I found not discomfort nor uncertainty surrounding me but a ton of faces that looked up to me with adoration and great expectancy. I felt as if the children looked up to everyone else as their saviour, their knight in shining armor, their twinkling eyes almost pleading you to be with them. They were untouched by the demons that have invaded the minds normalcy. They were as clean as the white sheets just waiting to be filled with the vibrance that life would soon bless them with. But more than anything their lips and mouth spoke of no words greater than the ones that their eyes and smiles said, treat us like everyone else. They are just like everyone else. They feel. They hurt. They think and they know. They know when they are being laughed at. They know how it feels to be pushed aside. They know the pain of being looked at differently.
I saw love in the eyes of these children and not for a moment did I doubt myself when I was in their midst. Not once did I have to think of the demons that I had left outside the doors of the centre. Neither did I have to even second guess myself at what I had perceived as every notion, every move and every word these children uttered were plainly meant as can be. If anyone were to ask me what is truth, from this children I would say I have learnt that truth is, void of knowleadgable deviants without being ignorant. These children are untainted by the dark wisdoms of our culture and nature not by choice but by the blessing undowed over them by God.This is why they are God's special children. They are his chosen ones to show others what Adam and Eve had once been blessed with, void of deviant knowledge without the aspect of ignorance.
I thank my lucky stars for allowing me a glimpse into such a wonder and such a miracle of life. I might sound as if I'm truly gushing at this rather excessively but not many may understand these kids the way some of us do. Not many may bother about them. Not many may even care but I do. And I thank God for allowing me the ability to feel and love. This is one instance that I have to say
Love is Pure,
Love is True,
Love is Childlike,
and if you allow it, you can find love in YOU.
Deeviana that was the most heartfelt thing i've read in qquite a while, i always avoided handicapped children because, well i don't know why really i just did, what u just wrote opened my selfish, self-centered eyes,
Thank you Deeviana